Today is my past.
Tomorrow strains:
A backpack tugging down,
On tensed up shoulders.
She went with a knife,
Slicing out my tongue.
She adorned me with bells,
To sing when she made me shake.
Filling my hands with handles
Of her luggage–no peeking–
There was no new me.
With clamps, safety-pins,
Anything I could find,
I forced my backpack to stay.
There had to be a me somewhere.
Pulling out a little notebook,
Maybe with toes or teeth–
Forcing it onto anyone:
A whimper, a beg.
But, she marked it with red-pen:
Screaming for an apology
Of who I was.
‘I can gloat louder than you.
I had a past more painful than you.
I have more worth to friends than you.
So, let me gift you a friendship,
Because I don’t want to fail.’
Letting her voice be louder,
I dropped her luggage while she slept.
A bag only full of years long past,
I counted my pennies,
And built myself a home
With locked doors.
But, how to I build a new tongue,
and have feeling in calloused hands?
Today is my past.
Tomorrow strains:
A backpack tugging down,
On tensed up shoulders.